What are you waiting on?

We are called to full time vocational ministry as a family.  We have no doubt about this.  It is a clear calling from God.  We know that He is at work and that there is a place where we will be - in the not so distant future - where we will be fulfilling that call.  Right now, however, we wait.  Ahh, the waiting game.  It isn't as though we aren't ministering now... we certainly are... but we also have a holy discontent... knowing that there is something that we are called to do beyond here and now and not being able - in our own strength - to force it to happen.  I explained to a friend recently my struggle in "waiting."  She reminded me that the Bible says that if we wait on the Lord our strength will be renewed and we will mount up on eagle's wings and soar.  "Is your strength being renewed?"  I asked myself.  NO.  I am being drained and worn out.  I am exhausted and doing the bare minimum right now to make it.  What gives?  Hmmm... perhaps I am waiting on people, on events, on circumstances, on something other than God.  Perhaps I have put my faith in something that isn't sustaining - its draining.  It is time to refocus.  To minister in the here and now, not biding my time while I wait for what I know is coming down the road one day - but as an act of trusting obedience.  Knowing that all I have to work with is the HERE and NOW.  God is at work in the past, present and future - simultaneously.  I need to trust Him to do what He does best - the ultimate multi-tasker, bringing things about in His perfect timing - and I need to stick to what He has called and equipped me to do IN THE NOW.  So, what am I waiting on? - ONLY GOD.