Weary of waiting; Glad for HIS intercession

04/27/2012

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The feeling of tears of frustration and fatigue running down my cheeks is an uncommon sensation for me... not entirely unheard of, but uncommon.  I am known more for my loud, boisterous laughter than for outbursts of tears. Today, however, was a day when playing the "waiting game" felt like a bit too much to ask of me, and the tears flowed freely.  Do you ever feel that way?  Like what life is requiring of you in the moment seems a bit too much to take?  Like what GOD is requiring of you is taking a bit too long and hurting a bit too much with not enough of an explanation of the "why" behind it all or the "when" of its eventual ending?  I'm right there with you.

In my heart I know the Truth: 
  • God will work all things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28. 
  • His ways are not our ways. Isaiah 55:8. 
  • Who am I to question God anyway? Romans 9:20. 
  • Waiting on God will eventually lead to a renewal of my strength. Psalm 27:14.
  • He comforts us in our sufferings so we can one day comfort others with the same comfort that we've experienced from Him.  2 Corinthians 1:4
  • God promises that endurance will produce maturity in me, so I can and should consider the stages of life that require endurance as PURE JOY.  James 1:2-4
I get it.  I know it is true and I will stand by these truths until the day I die and beyond, but every once in awhile, the intensity of the emotions involved in the living-out of these Truths pushes me to the brink and the tears fall and it is then that I am most grateful for the ministry of the Holy Spirit.  It is truly an all-knowing and all-loving God who not only gives us the Truth to frame our worldview, but also provides relief for our human weakness when living out the Truth is hard and frankly, makes us cry  - "In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness.  We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." Romans 8:26.


Thank you, Father.  You are good.  All the time.
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What are you waiting on?

03/18/2009

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We are called to full time vocational ministry as a family.  We have no doubt about this.  It is a clear calling from God.  We know that He is at work and that there is a place where we will be - in the not so distant future - where we will be fulfilling that call.  Right now, however, we wait.  Ahh, the waiting game.  It isn't as though we aren't ministering now... we certainly are... but we also have a holy discontent... knowing that there is something that we are called to do beyond here and now and not being able - in our own strength - to force it to happen.  I explained to a friend recently my struggle in "waiting."  She reminded me that the Bible says that if we wait on the Lord our strength will be renewed and we will mount up on eagle's wings and soar.  "Is your strength being renewed?"  I asked myself.  NO.  I am being drained and worn out.  I am exhausted and doing the bare minimum right now to make it.  What gives?  Hmmm... perhaps I am waiting on people, on events, on circumstances, on something other than God.  Perhaps I have put my faith in something that isn't sustaining - its draining.  It is time to refocus.  To minister in the here and now, not biding my time while I wait for what I know is coming down the road one day - but as an act of trusting obedience.  Knowing that all I have to work with is the HERE and NOW.  God is at work in the past, present and future - simultaneously.  I need to trust Him to do what He does best - the ultimate multi-tasker, bringing things about in His perfect timing - and I need to stick to what He has called and equipped me to do IN THE NOW.  So, what am I waiting on? - ONLY GOD. 

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